I am a procrastinator. I start projects with a good idea and never finish them. When I am given a project, I wait until the last minute to get it done. Somehow, I get a good grade on it at times. It ends up being not that bad to end up doing it that way all the time. Either way, the reason I don't start it is because I am not neccesarily into what the project is. There are those projects that you get and dread doing. For example, when I was in 8th grade, I had to do a history project about this American inventor I had no interest in at all. We had to write a research panphlet about our inventor. For me, I dread these kind of projects when they are given to us. I'm not into it at all. I would rather write a screen play about a scene about the inventor or making a colorful collage. The fact that I have to write a research paper about something just is not in my style at all. This is just for certain projects that I come across. Other projects like posters and power points I procrastinate about because I get easily distracted. It first starts off with me gathering up all of my ideas like your supposed to. Then, it's me trying to make a decision about which idea I like the most. Personally, I am not the greatest decision maker out there which is why I push it further and further away. I think that by giving two decisions I need to choose over some time to think about, it makes me choose the right one. Thus, it leads to distraction to me never getting it done in the end. Turns out that minutes will turn to hours and I will be up at midnight with out a project because I got easily distracted from not doing it.
Usually, I tell myself that I can watch for half an hour my favorite show. Ya know, relaxing before I get started. Sooner or later, the half an hour is up and up comes a new episode of one of my other favorite tv shows. So, because I am so comfortable on my couch, I feel the sense to not get up. I convince myself that in another half an hour, I will get started. Basically, this kind of way for me to have some relaxation time does not help at all. This makes me get easily distracted about not getting my work done. This usually ends when something boring comes on the TV. After that, I have no idea what to do nextvwith my project. So instead, I sit on my bed and think of more ideas of how to my project. Usually, this concludes to me passing out. In the morning, no project. I am that kind of person that can't stay on one task to get things done. When I have to get a project done, and this is when I actually want to just get it out of my way, I go into intense isolation. This means that I shall lock myself in a room for hours on end until I get what I need to get done finished. Apparently, it is very hard for me to get anything done with a little sister who bugs you every second she gets home from afterschool. She puts on full fledged interviews wanting to know everything that happened about my day. She instigates everything I do. So, my solution is to lock myself in a tiny room and get it all done. Either way, it always works.
Sunday, December 14, 2014
Sunday, December 7, 2014
Fear of : Improv
I have always been that kind of person that loves to take risks and try new things. If you told me to jump out of a plane, I would most likely do it. I would be into the whole feel of being adventurous to try new foods and visit new places. I do not like the feeling of being held down to just one place. I love to explore and to notice the world around me. When it comes to my art however, it turns into a whole other story. I would like to act and I want to pursue it one day as a career. On that note, I have learned that a skill that actresses need to have is improvisation. Improvisation is making up something as you go along. So, in that type of actiing, you would be taking the risk of seeing whether or not a certain scene would work out. For me, I have the fear of this because whenever I take on a cast I haven't been workimg with for a while, I suddenly freeze up. It puts me in a state that I am not used to and scared in fact if I got judged for messing up an improvisation. I kmow that in this kind of industry your going to be judged, but for now I need to be taught on how to take those punches. Now though, I just want to build a sense of trust with the cast that I work with for future shows and hope to get to know them better. This would lead to me being less fearful and more relaxed.
In the high school, I have been easily intimidated by the outstanding actors and actresses to take on the stage there. These fellow cast members have had more experience then me obviously. If I were in an improv scene with one of these members, I would not know what to do. I would fear the fact of messing up in front of them. I would not want to do that in front of talented kids themselves. I would practically look like a joke. The fact that I fear the chance of messing up is insane, but true. It just involves intimidation of a new area I do not have any familiar times with. At the same time, in the middle school I felt free to do anything that came to my mind. I had been working with the cast I loved for the last three years. People would come in and go , but I still got used to having those kind of people around. It made us one big dysfunctional family year after year that I have done the musical. Every single time that I was in a certain improv scene, year after year my confidence grew. I was taking the risks that I has always had imagined of doing. I thought of new material with the snap of my fingers. Last year was one of my greastest years in being the older kids in school. I more freedom to work with what I had. It felt amazing. Yet, when I got to to high school, it all changed. I was at the bottom working my way up with an unfamiliar director and cast. At this point, it was a long road ahead, but I would need to get used to it in order to one day pursue what I would like to do.
So all in all, I fear the fact that I am easily intimidated in a new environment that involves my art. I want to be able to do anything when it comes to an improv scene. I want to not care what anyone thinks. I want to gain confidence in what I do and how I do it. I am a ristaker. For me, I want to overcome my obstacle in facing the stage with confidence. That this should involve not caring about what others think about what my improv is whether it ir weird or not to an extent. I want to learn how to take the punches one after the other. I want to ready for it. In the article that was given to me I quote, " What separates artists from ex-artists is that those who challenge their fears, continue; those who don’t, quit." I care about comtinuing on and pursuing what I would like to do. I need help with learning about how to deal with the road ahead for how to deal with the entertainment business. At this point, I want to be the kind of artist that moves ahead in my art discipline to say ," You know what, it was all worth it."
In the high school, I have been easily intimidated by the outstanding actors and actresses to take on the stage there. These fellow cast members have had more experience then me obviously. If I were in an improv scene with one of these members, I would not know what to do. I would fear the fact of messing up in front of them. I would not want to do that in front of talented kids themselves. I would practically look like a joke. The fact that I fear the chance of messing up is insane, but true. It just involves intimidation of a new area I do not have any familiar times with. At the same time, in the middle school I felt free to do anything that came to my mind. I had been working with the cast I loved for the last three years. People would come in and go , but I still got used to having those kind of people around. It made us one big dysfunctional family year after year that I have done the musical. Every single time that I was in a certain improv scene, year after year my confidence grew. I was taking the risks that I has always had imagined of doing. I thought of new material with the snap of my fingers. Last year was one of my greastest years in being the older kids in school. I more freedom to work with what I had. It felt amazing. Yet, when I got to to high school, it all changed. I was at the bottom working my way up with an unfamiliar director and cast. At this point, it was a long road ahead, but I would need to get used to it in order to one day pursue what I would like to do.
So all in all, I fear the fact that I am easily intimidated in a new environment that involves my art. I want to be able to do anything when it comes to an improv scene. I want to not care what anyone thinks. I want to gain confidence in what I do and how I do it. I am a ristaker. For me, I want to overcome my obstacle in facing the stage with confidence. That this should involve not caring about what others think about what my improv is whether it ir weird or not to an extent. I want to learn how to take the punches one after the other. I want to ready for it. In the article that was given to me I quote, " What separates artists from ex-artists is that those who challenge their fears, continue; those who don’t, quit." I care about comtinuing on and pursuing what I would like to do. I need help with learning about how to deal with the road ahead for how to deal with the entertainment business. At this point, I want to be the kind of artist that moves ahead in my art discipline to say ," You know what, it was all worth it."
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